Not This Month...

This morning my temperature dropped. For those who are not so in-tune with the functionings of their reproductive systems, and therefore are not sure why I even mention my temperature while trying to conceive, it signifies this:

I'm not pregnant and I'm due to start my next cycle today or tomorrow. It all has to do with your progesterone levels and reproductive mumbo-jumbo...

But, while the news is not thrilling in the least bit, I'm glad to have those subtle cues to let me down rather than wondering and wondering if I'm going to be late only to be left with sinking disappointment when my period surprises me.

And, discovering this cue today has not discouraged me in my anticipation of God's movement. Continuing my much more free-flowing, God-written script, I will simply wait for my period to actually come and then schedule my next blood test for 2 days after that. This means, we can anticipate my test being most likely Friday or Saturday. I'm just ready to get to the next part of the process, which is most likely Clomid. I never thought before that I would ever have to take this drug, and knowing some of the common side effects makes me a little less eager to take it. However, for many people, it was just the boost they needed. I just have to keep on believing that God brought us to this place that we are now, and will lead us to the right doctors and medications. This verse was brought to my attention multiple times yesterday and I think it's fitting for today:

Just as you cannot understand how breath comes to a tiny baby in its mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the activity of God, who does all things. (Ecclesiastes 11:5)