I began this blog when I was 23 years old and my husband, Jesse was only 21. That was in December of 2007 when we decided that we wanted to bring a baby into our family. We had no idea all that decision entailed. Back then I had a false assumption that I was super-fertile and would get pregnant even while on birth control. Well, I was off of birth control for over a year, went through all of the fertility testing, and then was diagnosed with "unexplained infertility".

This past year has been one of the most difficult I have ever been through. I ran the emotional gauntlet on this issue, ranging from intense sadness and heartache to anger towards God to total peace about what He is doing. God began to show me how He was using my infertility as a ministry. It is my hope to share my testimony with others so that they may either be encouraged as they face their own infertility or educated as they learn what infertility entails. More than that, though, I hope that the things I share point others to God regardless of what they are going through.

When I first began this blog, the entries were kept private. But I have decided to open everything up in order to let people see the raw truth of the struggle. I strive to find the fine line between sharing the truth and sharing too much information. However, it is my desire to share my heart, regardless. And I have learned that there is never "too much information" in the world of infertility.

After being diagnosed with unexplained infertility on November 17, 2008, I was put on a round of 50mg of Clomid to strengthen the quality and quantity of my eggs. I suppose it was how God chose to work because I became pregnant that very cycle.

In order to be sensitive to those who are still going through infertility, I have opened up a new blog about my pregnancy. I am maintaining this one, though, hoping that it serves as a testimony to anyone who may be going through infertility at the time they come across my site. If you want to follow my life's journey, check out my other blogs. And if you would like, please don't hesitate to email me:

Monday, March 17, 2008

Monday, Feeling Hopeful

When Jesse and I first decided to begin trying to have a baby at the end of December, I had already been off of birth control for a month. To begin our attempt at conceiving, Jesse and I simply continued to have sex without the use of birth control with a slight knowledge about average ovulation patterns. In January, armed with much more knowledge of fertility, I began charting my period dates and dates of intercourse on an online fertility calender. Mid-February, I began taking ovulation tests and added this information to my fertility calender. What made it really difficult, though, was that every ovulation test I took came up with a negative result. At the beginning of March, I began taking my basal body temperature as another means of testing fertility. And by mid-March, I bought a male fertility kit for Jesse in order to test his sperm count and mobility. We decided to hold off on his test, though, while I was potentially most fertile and test him later in my cycle when I wouldn't be fertile. Finally, though, after taking 27 days worth of ovulation tests, I got a positive result TODAY!!! I was so excited. At least I have conclusive evidence that I do ovulate and have the potential to get pregnant. And being able to know what day adds so much possibility to the potential I have of getting pregnant. In addition, I had sex twice yesterday and then again today which greatly increases my chances of conceiving. Furthermore, I found out that, statistically, 50% of couples get pregnant within 3 months of trying, 75% get pregnant within 6 months, and 80-90% get pregnant within a year. That means that I have a 75% chance of getting pregnant within the next 2 weeks. So, discovering my ovulation date and having sex near and on that day makes me that much more hopeful that I will indeed conceive really soon!!! Here's crossing my fingers and hoping for the best!!!

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