I began this blog when I was 23 years old and my husband, Jesse was only 21. That was in December of 2007 when we decided that we wanted to bring a baby into our family. We had no idea all that decision entailed. Back then I had a false assumption that I was super-fertile and would get pregnant even while on birth control. Well, I was off of birth control for over a year, went through all of the fertility testing, and then was diagnosed with "unexplained infertility".

This past year has been one of the most difficult I have ever been through. I ran the emotional gauntlet on this issue, ranging from intense sadness and heartache to anger towards God to total peace about what He is doing. God began to show me how He was using my infertility as a ministry. It is my hope to share my testimony with others so that they may either be encouraged as they face their own infertility or educated as they learn what infertility entails. More than that, though, I hope that the things I share point others to God regardless of what they are going through.

When I first began this blog, the entries were kept private. But I have decided to open everything up in order to let people see the raw truth of the struggle. I strive to find the fine line between sharing the truth and sharing too much information. However, it is my desire to share my heart, regardless. And I have learned that there is never "too much information" in the world of infertility.

After being diagnosed with unexplained infertility on November 17, 2008, I was put on a round of 50mg of Clomid to strengthen the quality and quantity of my eggs. I suppose it was how God chose to work because I became pregnant that very cycle.

In order to be sensitive to those who are still going through infertility, I have opened up a new blog about my pregnancy. I am maintaining this one, though, hoping that it serves as a testimony to anyone who may be going through infertility at the time they come across my site. If you want to follow my life's journey, check out my other blogs. And if you would like, please don't hesitate to email me:

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Are you serious?!

I came across this online today. It's made specifically to elevate your legs and pelvis to allow the sperm to get as close to the cervix as possible. This is common enough practice amongst those of us who are trying to conceive. My doctor actually told me it was pointless, but I couldn't help it. I didn't want to take any chances. I was willing to try anything to make sure I covered all of my bases. Having said that, though, what happened to just using an old fashioned pillow?


It's $65.95! Are you serious?!


I Believe in Miracles said...

I guess if you have a lot of money... can you use it as a cushion to sit up and read at night too??

Melody said...

It looks very uncomfortable, especially considering you have to stay that way for at least 30 minutes. Goodness, my lower back would be numb by then.

I just use the old fashion pillow myself.