I began this blog when I was 23 years old and my husband, Jesse was only 21. That was in December of 2007 when we decided that we wanted to bring a baby into our family. We had no idea all that decision entailed. Back then I had a false assumption that I was super-fertile and would get pregnant even while on birth control. Well, I was off of birth control for over a year, went through all of the fertility testing, and then was diagnosed with "unexplained infertility".

This past year has been one of the most difficult I have ever been through. I ran the emotional gauntlet on this issue, ranging from intense sadness and heartache to anger towards God to total peace about what He is doing. God began to show me how He was using my infertility as a ministry. It is my hope to share my testimony with others so that they may either be encouraged as they face their own infertility or educated as they learn what infertility entails. More than that, though, I hope that the things I share point others to God regardless of what they are going through.

When I first began this blog, the entries were kept private. But I have decided to open everything up in order to let people see the raw truth of the struggle. I strive to find the fine line between sharing the truth and sharing too much information. However, it is my desire to share my heart, regardless. And I have learned that there is never "too much information" in the world of infertility.

After being diagnosed with unexplained infertility on November 17, 2008, I was put on a round of 50mg of Clomid to strengthen the quality and quantity of my eggs. I suppose it was how God chose to work because I became pregnant that very cycle.

In order to be sensitive to those who are still going through infertility, I have opened up a new blog about my pregnancy. I am maintaining this one, though, hoping that it serves as a testimony to anyone who may be going through infertility at the time they come across my site. If you want to follow my life's journey, check out my other blogs. And if you would like, please don't hesitate to email me:

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Angel Tree

I just wanted to share one more thing. Last night Jesse and I were at the mall and walked past the Angel Tree with all of the tags hanging on it. I did Angel Trees a lot as a kid. My family would choose a name off of the tree and help to give that kid something special for Christmas. I asked Jesse if he wanted to do it this year. It seems that this year, above past ones, have been able giving to those in need. My church is collecting items to send care packages to the soldiers oversea. In addition, we are collecting clothes to give to the local mission for homeless people. In this spirit, we chose a name off of the Angel Tree at the mall. We decided that since we don't have a baby of our own to dote on this Christmas, we would bless someone else's baby in need.

Meet Seth, only 2 months :

It says that he wants/needs a Leap Frog educational toy. This is probably because the names come from the local relief nursery. However, in addition to that, I'd love to just shower this baby boy with love and gifts. I plan on contacting the nursery to make sure I can get him some more stuff than just that one thing.

It's what Christmas is all about- sharing the love of my Savior with others.

1 comment:

Melody said...

That's a wonderful thing to do. I do something similar by making baby things and donating them. Actually whenever I make a baby blanket, I pray for that child who's wrapped in it one day.